My mind is blank with exhaustion... I don't quite understand why this job is so tiring. Maybe it's the fact that I'm constantly switched on to "happy happy joy joy" teacher mode. Maybe it's the monotony of doing the same lesson countless times. Maybe, to be frank, it's that my heart isn't completely in it.
I've just spent the last ten minutes sitting next to Oita river in the grass, hearing it rattle against the wind. I have to get up and go again now- isn't that always the case- but, for those minutes I felt completely chilled and it was the best feeling.
This job is seriously draining. Just being in a foreign (linguistically different) country means you are on hyper-alert all the time trying to understand the most basic things. Then throw in having to work as an "assistant" to fifty different teachers who all expect different things from you, let alone trying to engage the kids... It gets easier though!
ReplyDeleteHey Sophia!
ReplyDeleteThank you for another thoughtful comment! :)
I never thought of it like that! I do find it a bit isolating at times not being able to have a proper conversation with someone, like you would in any other job!
Yeah, VERY different things- it's incredible how many different expectations there are.
I'm glad to hear it gets easier!